“Any life, whatever it is, requires a kind of permanent violence to take its place in the world; it can only blossom at the expense of other things, there is no way around it.
The Killer
The danger of getting the thing you want the most is that you have the thing you want the most. She found herself preoccupied these days. With unhappiness. With melancholy. It would sneak up on her in between the happy moments. It would wedge itself into the cracks and taunt her with it’s ludicrous truth — with everything, there was still more. The NEED never went away. It just got more confusing. More irksome. Less controlled. If the thing you want the most, is not actually the thing you want the most, then what is there?
“It is also what I refer to as the bill. You eat a delicious meal at a delicious restaurant, you get a bill. You buy the expensive bag online, the bill comes due. You want in, you gotta pay. Same with life (or at least life as it plays out in my head). The scales have to be balanced. It’s the hideous game of fate our characters always play. She gets to keep her Derek but the very thing that makes it okay to keep him, that hideous stressful moment where she believes he’s dead? That’s the very thing that makes her lose the baby. The bill was due. And the collection agents came calling. I hate it but it’s the only way I know to do it – let the universe hand Mer a shiny pony and then kick Mer in the face. You don’t get to have everything. There’s always a price.
Shonda Rhimes on the Grey’s finale
You win Shonda Rhimes. The Grey’s and Private Practice finales were both pure gold. Well played.
Gold.
Life of a Pseudo-Writer →
The things about being a “Screenwriter” that nobody talks about.
Gold. Finished. 1st drafts are always the hardest/funnest part.
